« We find w.h.e.r.e we are in [t h i s] {Lakoen} » Welcome Guest. Please Login or Register. Nov 27, 2009, 6:04pm

Information	Pride. Tragedies. Lies.	Current Events
Staff Accounts Les [Admin] [x] [x] [x] Laynie [Global Mod.] [x] [x] Jared [Global Mod.] [x] Jess [Graphics Designer] [x] News&Events: The Cannon parents have died. Schools starting soon. Upcoming Fall Homecoming dance & game. Our banner Our Advertisement	x x x Welcome to PTL. We are getting these progressing very quickly and we need a lot of the open characters. The adults and students alike are needed to make this place what it is truly meant to be. We need cheerleaders and members for the basketball team! Sign up here. If you decide to join us, you will be in for drama, love, desire, and through it all you'll find a bit of peace, that little moment where you just stand and remember the past. Notice that all of the characters, plots, and profile information is copyrighted to the members and the owner of the site. You may not take anything from this site without the premission of the owner or the character's player. Quick links rules x apply main Plot x sub-plots cannons x claims high school clique info	Season Beggining of Autumn. Weather: True to it's Californian climate, the weather is still rather breezy with the softest hint of summer in the wind. However, nights are getting chilly, most of the city clothed in long sleeved shirts and sweaters. Other than that, the weather remains warm, with only the slightest edge of impending cold. member of the month none yet
Affiliates

Pride. Tragedies. Lies. :: Legacy High :: Tutoring Center :: We find w.h.e.r.e we are in [t h i s] {Lakoen} Author Topic: We find w.h.e.r.e we are in [t h i s] {Lakoen} (Read 173 times) [g.u.i.n.n.a] t y r a n t Sophomore/Admin Geek Cheerleader Homecoming Queen member is offline a l w a y s & f o r e v e r Joined: Mar 2007 Posts: 691 Location: In his arms ♥ Karma: 1 We find w.h.e.r.e we are in [t h i s] {Lakoen} « Thread Started on Mar 25, 2007, 8:19pm » Well, the week had been intersting so far, and by the request of the pricipal, she was tutoring a couple of days before school actually started that year, and next school year was probably planning to do the very same thing. There was a lot of manging to do within the area since everyone had been so eager to leave the school, even the tutors had been, and she had been too if she admitted it. So that was step one for the morning, prepairing everything so she didn't have to worry about that later, which would mean some problems later on if she didn't. Papers were in the wrong places, and needed to be filed, it was a good thing that the pricipal trusted her enough with all of this stuff or she wouldn't be there today to tutor people. There was an upper level tutor there as well, but other than that there was no one there, only noises that were heard were the two organizing files and shelves. She sighed a little bit, this was going to be a long day, even though people knew that they could get tutoring a couple of days before shcool actually started up, it wouldn't make things any easier for the two there. The main hope though was that Demerol might stop by sometime that day so she could make sure that he was still on the right track, and help him with whatever he needed help with. There were also a couple of other people coming in she had heard, but she didn't really know who they were quite yet, only that a few had already planned on dropping by. She didn't seem the organization job, but that was because it was keeping her busy until people actually needed her for something or another with tutoring. Which would be a good thing for the most part for the girl, but a little bit of a bad thing as well if Demerol happened to walk in right that morning right at that time, when she was busy organizing. She made a huge mess with some of the paper that she was holding in her hand, and she sighed as she picked up the huge mess of papers, knowing that she would probably just do something a lot like that the next day. Making sure that they were still in the same order, she put them in their proper, places, hoping that no one had really notice her do that since she had a rough start to the morning. The day before Nyla and her had been talking to each other and now she had tried to say nothing to Nyla just 'good morning' and 'bye' was all that she had spoken towards her sister. Finally done with all of her work for the morning so far she sat down at one of the tables that was commonly filled during the school year. Right now it felt a little lonely, yet nice at the same time that morning, she was somewhat wondering if Nyla had told anyone about her crush, although she hoped that she didn't. Link to Post - Back to Top   Logged Guinna & Demerol xx always and forever Lakoen Cannon Junior/Gobel Moderator Graphics Manager Prom Queen Cheerleader member is offline Perfection is far from the truth.... Joined: Mar 2007 Gender: Female Posts: 271 Location: ♥♥♥ Karma: 0 Re: We find w.h.e.r.e we are in [t h i s] {Lakoen} « Reply #1 on Apr 8, 2007, 11:01am » Lakoen decided that it was about time she got her priorities straight. Within her head she had a list going, which was very seldom of her to do. First on the list was go talk to the principal face to face about her schedule for the impending year that lay ahead of her. When she had received all of the information about the matter in the mail it had been all messed up, and she had even gotten some classes that she hadn't even wanted to take onto her schedule. Finding it quite annoying she figured a big long talk with the principal or her guidance counselor was needed direly. That would surely straighten everything out. Lakoen also wanted to say that she was found it slightly bothersome to have to take the time to get her schedule fixed, but she knew that mistakes happened and it was hard to get everything right on the dot with the many students that came to the school each year. That seemed like a nice way to put it. At least then she wouldn’t have to sit through some boring lecture on how hard it was to run a school with so many kids in it. A lecture would be a complete drag. Who wanted to ever sit through one, especially from her principal and or guidance counselor? All she wanted to do was get in there get the problem fixed and get out of there. Clean and simple, that was the way to do it. It sure saved a lot of hassle to do it that way, and that way explosion wasn’t in her near future from getting angry and frustrated about it. At least not to the people she was supposed to look up two. Suppose to being the key words in that statement. Lakoen’s guidance counselor annoyed her to the bone. He was ‘How does that fact that you are failing chemistry make you feel sweetheart?’ Anyone could tell you that it was uncomfortable for a guidance counselor to like you that much, and it was like sexual harassment. She loathed the man, and for another thing, she was pretty sure he was gay. Not that she had anything against gay people. Lakoen even had some friends from her old school that were gay. She just couldn’t stand the man in question because he was so “fruitti tutti” about crap all the time. Dread of what was to come aside Lakoen walked through the student parking lot. In her hands were a few books, she was going to drop them off at her locker, and her small purse that held all of the necessities inside of it. Not that there was many things that she couldn’t live without. As she walked she fingered the necklace hanging from her neck with slow fingers. Lately she had been down and depressed about things, and it was something she had found herself doing a lot lately. Her mother had given her the necklace and she missed her mother with all her heart. The things she would do to be able to see her mom’s smiling face again. She just wanted to see her one more time. She wanted to say bye. It would help her clear her mind a bit, and help her move on from the black whole she had recently dug into her heart. It felt like she had done something wrong or something. Something that was so wrong that it couldn’t be cleaned up no matter how many showers she took to cleanse herself of the dirt it had washed over her body. No amount of tears could wash away the pain she had been feeling since both her parents had died. It was horrible, but she tried to hid it, Every morning she tried to wake up with a smile, put her eyeliner on way to thick and covered up the torment she felt with a warm shower and some make-up, but that didn’t erase what she was feeling. If anything it made it worse. Keeping things inside just made them build up until they burst from so much pressure. Lakoen was yet to cry about her parent’s and she was dreading the moment when she broke down and started to bawl her eyes out. With her luck it would probably be in public and attention would be placed on her. Hopefully that wouldn’t happen. For now she was ok, but then again she was far from ok. She felt like crying, and it was getting harder and harder to hold it in, A crack had slowly been forming in her smile. She tried to patch it up with some lip gloss, but the crack remand. Today, Lakoen had tried extra hard to look presentable. She was going out in public for the first time in a while and it wouldn’t do her any good to look like a complete mess. Her short blonde hair had been straightened and pulled back into a stubby ponytail. She had taken the time to wash her favorite AC DC shirt and her favorite pair of holey blue jeans that were frayed and hopelessly muddled. They sure had been through plenty. The only thing that seemed to remain the same day from day was the fact that she almost always wore her black scuffed up converse. Yes, she had others shoes, but the converse were the most comfortable. At least they were the most comfortable in her opinion. As she walked Lakoen carefully took off her favorite pair of big sunglasses. She put them into the light green bag that was propped up on her shoulder and then adjusted the books in her right arm. She really didn’t want to be at school when it hadn’t even started, but it seemed to be a must, and she might as well get it over with. It saved her the confusion of the first day of school when she first had to go to the principal to fix her schedule and miss first period. Lakoen hated to miss class on the first day of school. Maybe it wasn’t all that exciting, but the whole foundation for the rest of the year was laid out on that day, and the teachers hated if you missed the introduction to Honors Sociology or whatever it happened to be. Lakoen loved the first day of classes. Sometimes you had homework, but if you did it wasn’t much at all. Reaching the entrance door Lakoen opened it and went inside wondering who else was here today. It was quiet in the hallway as she walked, and she heard every step she made. It seemed to vibrate in her ears and then rebound off of the walls and come back to her again. Maybe she was just paranoid, aye? Heading up the stairs to the second floor she made her way through the school and came to a stop at the principal’s office. Walking over with a smile, a smile that was fake, she asked the receptionist that was at the desk if the principal was in at the moment. Receiving no for an answer she wondered if she should wait in the main area for him to return or not, but who knew where he was at the moment. She could try back in a little bit, and if he wasn’t back by then she would have to wait. That seemed like an ok plan to her . Exiting the room with the receptionist staring after her she made it back through the hallway and down the stairs. Going through the hallway she amused herself with looking in some of the empty classrooms, and then next came the tutoring center. As she looked in and looked around she noticed that Guinna was in there. She looked like she was sorting through papers, and although Guinna and Lakoen weren’t the best of friends she knew that the girl loved to tutor. She must have been tutoring in the summer or something a long the lines. Even though she didn’t necessarily know the girl that well she stepped a little more into the room, hoping she wasn’t getting in the way and said, ”Hey Guinna, what are you doing here?” Lakoen smiled at the girl and set her bag down in a chair, it was starting to hurt her shoulder a bit. « Last Edit: Apr 8, 2007, 11:08am by Lakoen Cannon » Link to Post - Back to Top   Logged [g.u.i.n.n.a] t y r a n t Sophomore/Admin Geek Cheerleader Homecoming Queen member is offline a l w a y s & f o r e v e r Joined: Mar 2007 Posts: 691 Location: In his arms ♥ Karma: 1 Re: We find w.h.e.r.e we are in [t h i s] {Lakoen} « Reply #2 on Apr 8, 2007, 3:55pm » The moment the door had been opened, she felt a bit of relief that there was actually someone who was going to be there beside just herself. The person happened to be Lakoen Cannon, the girl that had her parents die right before this. She knew that it had been hard on her three friends, two of which she was really close to. Jake and Ridley were the two people she was talking about after all; Ridley was Lakoen’s best friend and hers as well. She smiled, knowing that Demerol wouldn’t be there for awhile, which really helped the case of Lakoen suddenly coming in by a mile. She had all her papers set up the way the needed to be thankfully, though Lakoen could see Guinna’s tutoring list for the day which contained only one person, Demerol Tyrant. Lakoen was one of the other cheer leaders that were happy all of the time, a little too much in her own opinion. Guinna was more of the realistic type, though recently she had been faking a lot of things. Maybe it just came with being related to a bunch of prom queens and jocks or something complete different. She didn’t really know for sure. She knew that it was hard for her to handle things now without faking something. It had become a horrible habit that wasn’t just going to go away at her request. Though she wished that it would, it just wouldn’t work like that, even if she tried to make it so. So she sucked it up and went on with life, faking some of the details. If people knew the truth about all this they would think that she was a really good lair. Though she didn’t like lying all that much, it seemed to be the only way out of all the things that she was now stuck with. The Guinna before all of this would have never lied about anything, and was the girl that hated lairs. So why all of a sudden did that have to change? The girl was never the type to dread going to school, at least no after she had met Demerol that is. She knew that most people thought that she went there everyday to get a good education to go to collage when it was actually something else. It was sort of strange, but the boy who hated school was actually managing to encourage her to go to school even more by just being there. Maybe it was a strange psychological thing, or something totally different. It didn’t matter all that much though, it got her here that day so she got to talk to Lakoen. Lakoen had been going through a lot with Ridley; in fact she hadn’t really seen her friends that much at all. The truth was that she had been working at Desiree’s place a lot just to keep her mind off of things. She loved that place; it was one of the places that she could just talk about just about anything on her mind. Desiree was great, and acted like a mother toward all the Hilde’s, who were also really good friends of hers. She knew just by that that she would do a really good job with taking care of her son. Who knew maybe at one point the two best friends would be working side by side at the café that she basically owned. The truth was that her father owned it, although it was given for Desiree to manage after what had happened to her. It had been a great gift since Desiree had always loved the place, and Guinna herself had grown pretty attached to it. She didn’t know what she would do without that place being around anymore. It would probably be so depressing to her that she would move back and not ever come back. Maybe that was a bit of an over-reaction to something like that, but she didn’t ever want that place to disappear. She replied to what Lakoen had to say and of course the wondering why a student other then the person themselves made sense. She was there to tutor Demerol and that was pretty much it, although she would just go right out and say that to his ex-girlfriend. That wouldn’t be the best thing to do, and probably wouldn’t be too good for Demerol either. So she was just going to go with the simple route and just tell her the basics and not the details. “I’m here to tutor someone before school starts up.” That was working just right when it came to her plan, which had been not to say all that much about it. She didn’t know that her paper about the person she was tutoring that day was set on her desk and notes about their studying in there as well. It was a good thing that her little one word dairy was not in the pile either, or she would be dead. She knew that she was hampering with a guy that had been dating a person that was her best friend’s best friend, which was sort of weird. To think about it, her and Lakoen should haven known each other a whole lot better then they actually did. She seemed cool, so Guinna would probably start hanging out with her more or something along those lines. If she had time with all the Demerol tutoring sessions she managed to fit in anyways. The girl loved tutoring, and it was a fact that very session was on a different thing that they needed to cover. One time it would be for Math, then Science, English, and pretty much all of the other core classes that you needed to take as a sophomore. She had to admit that it was pretty interesting to get all of these things in one day, but she managed it each time. It was sort of amazing, yet at the same time very possible for the tutor and tutored pair. She had all of freshman year no real life outside of all of the tutoring that she had done with Demerol. This in turn would show why she had started to get a crush on the guy even though he was a complete and total jerk. If you spent enough time with someone you got attached in one way or another and there was no real way of stopping it. Even if you wanted it to be something different it turned out the wrong way. You just couldn’t avoid something like a crush in this case. The guy was so hard to resist for most girls, and she had managed it for a whole year. That was when she had had the Demerol Tyrant experience the real one, not the one most people thought they got. She got see what it was like with the struggles that he had to go through to make it. It seemed that passion pulled him through, and the pain that he got out of the whole thing was encouragement. That was something she knew she probably wouldn’t have been able to handle that entirely well. That was why he was caption of the basketball team most likely, and the fact that he was one of the best out there. It made sense to her, but the other people in his group picking on Jacob however, did not make any sense at all. The old team had been made of seniors for the most part, so when they all left, Demerol and his crew took over. At first, she thought that he was the biggest jerk of them all, but now that she knew him, she was having second thoughts. She had given herself a chance to look deep inside of him and find the good things within. Now, in her eyes he was a good person and it didn’t matter what other people thought about that either. They would all just have to live with what they got out of it and move on, liking it or not. Link to Post - Back to Top   Logged Guinna & Demerol xx always and forever Lakoen Cannon Junior/Gobel Moderator Graphics Manager Prom Queen Cheerleader member is offline Perfection is far from the truth.... Joined: Mar 2007 Gender: Female Posts: 271 Location: ♥♥♥ Karma: 0 Re: We find w.h.e.r.e we are in [t h i s] {Lakoen} « Reply #3 on Apr 21, 2007, 3:03pm » Lakoen looked around the room. She noted all of the changes that had been done to the place over the summer and smiled. In her opinion the place looked better, more organized. It had more of a friendly comfortable atmosphere- one that would actually make someone want to get help from someone who was smarter than them. It was a nice thought. She would have to ask Guinna who renovated the room so she could tell them that he or she did a nice job. The thought of someone doing that seemed weird, but Lakoen needed something else to think about lately. Plus, there was no hurt in being nice and going out of your way to do something. Even if it was to cover up her hurt, to hide what had happened, to hold it all inside- it made it ok. Well, not ok, more like a disaster. It’s not that she didn’t no that it was ok to be sad. She just wanted to make it through without falling apart at the seams. Was that ok? Should she be the girl that let the world know when she was sad, and dumb her problems on their shoulders? Should she complain to them and go to them for comfort? Lakoen thought she would save everyone the trouble of being dragged down with her. Truly, she didn’t want to hold it all in, talking about it would help, but she didn’t trust many people. Every time she got close to someone they slipped away out of her grasp and left her broken hearted. Telling someone what her heart was feeling would only make them closer to her. She wouldn’t do that. She was afraid, afraid of losing everyone she cared of an being left alone. Avoiding that, she started to push everyone away after her parent’s deaths. Safer, was the way to go. Her mind told her that anyway. In truth though she wasn’t helping anyone, and at the same time she was slowly drowning. Drowning in her own sorrow and defeat. Words seemed to loose meaning, the world seemed to slow. Everything seemed grey. Color escaped her notice. Lakoen slowly accepted everything. Not understanding how she was to move on after all that had happened. Lose and confusion danced around in her head and seemed to laugh at her when she was by herself in a quiet room. Many times she wanted to let it all out; to cry and never stop. The tears would come one day, they had to, they must. Tears of pain and moving on were Lakoen’s sanity. They were her little sanctuary amongst all the chaos and the bad. Each tear had meaning. Alas, the tears hadn’t come and Lakoen felt left alone. Scanning the paper with which Guinna held, Lakoen paused for a moment. She didn’t know what to say. Words wanted to come, but they seemed to be in a traffic jam within her throat. More then one thing wanted to come out at once and there were so many things that she didn’t know what to say first. Maybe, she shouldn’t say anything at all. The whole thing just made her blood boil, and she was positive that Guinna most know that. Did she also know that Lakoen herself could see the very small, and rather anger provoking list. Eyeing the name that was on it with a calm look on her face she let the name run through her head, Demerol Tyrant… Demerol Tyrant… Demerol Tyrant. The words made her head want to explode. She felt like slapping Guinna in the face. Anger, that had been stored away on a shelf would definitely be shattered and gone if she did, indeed, do just that. Containment was the key though. She didn’t want to loss one of her best friends over the lie that was staring her in the face, and making her extremely sick to the stomach. Maybe that was just the rage she was feeling at the moment. How could Guinna lie about that? If she would have told Lakoen about it in the first place, sure Lakoen wouldn’t be happy, but she would get over it and move on. It wasn’t right to get made over something you couldn’t control. All that was making her mad was the fact that Guinna had lied to her face. Wow, she never thought she see the day when her friend did something like that. Lying was completely against who Guinna was. Why then had she done it? Wrenching her eyes away from the list, Lakoen looked up into Guinna’s face. Anyone would be able to tell that she was a little pissed off at the moment. Her eyes told the story. Slowly she progressed across the room not saying a word and grabbed the list as if it would explode if she touched it, or maybe she would explode. Looking at it once she frowned and glared before turning it towards her liar of a friend and getting a angry look on her face, ”Why, why did you lie to me?” she asked, trying to keep her voice steady and calm. The task was proving hard if she talked too much so she left it at that. Although she had to add something else, because Guinna didn’t bother to say who when she said, “I’m here to tutor someone before school starts up.”. Taking a silent breath she looked away from her friend for a second. She really didn’t want this turning into World War III or something. All the girl wanted to do was know why. She stopped glaring at Guinna and took another breath before saying, ”You mean Demerol, right? I don’t get it. Why couldn’t you just tell me that in the first place?” her voice was rising steadily, ”I totally get that you have your job to tutor whoever the principal sees fit, so then I would understand if it ended up to be him.” Jabbing a finger at the paper she shook her head and continued, ”It’s not like you are messing with him behind my back and stuff. I wouldn’t understand that. This is different though. Lies don’t make friends. Especially something like this. It’s not like you to have feelings for each other, and you stabbed me in the back by making out with him or something when we just broke up. All it is is some school thing that you have to do in order to keep your job at the tutor center. I get that. What I don’t get is why you would lie like a bitch to my face. You know, you know I don’t trust people, and lying just makes me so pissed off, especially when it is from a friend. Although, we aren’t the closets. Does Ridley know?” Lakoen’s voice had rose a bit more by now, and she said the last part in a calmer more collected voice. Why did everyone lie to her? Why did they lie and then give up on her, why? That was the only reason she was so pissed about the whole things. Closing her eyes for a moment, Lakoen regretted even yelling at the girl. She didn’t like to hurt people, and she didn’t like to be angry with them. Truth be told Guinna seemed to be somewhat of a stranger at the moment. Like Lakoen didn’t know the real her anymore, the other side of the innocent girl was shinning through. The side seemed to be completely opposite from the normal, and it was odd. If Guinna was involved with the boy who she had grown to love then loathe, she felt bad for her. Mr. Tyrant was the kind of boy who built you up to watch you fall. He liked all the girls fawning over him, and he enjoyed it. As sorry as she was to think this, Lakoen though Demerol was somewhat of a man whore. Probably the biggest one she knew at that. Even though that was true she missed the guy. He had a soft side to him or something, and insecure sweet side that actually cared. It just depended on the day you were around him and who he was with. Lakoen knew it in her heart that she missed him, but she couldn’t bother to go after someone that she didn’t even care about anymore. Her head told her to stay put, and she would forever. That was her hope anyway. No reason was there for her to need and risk her heart again. It would stay clear of the battleground love drama, thank you very much. If Demerol was going out with Guinna she felt betrayed by her friend and she hated to say it, but she felt like she was being messed with and nobody cared about her feelings. Her head was just spinning right now, and she didn't know what to feel or think. Link to Post - Back to Top   Logged [g.u.i.n.n.a] t y r a n t Sophomore/Admin Geek Cheerleader Homecoming Queen member is offline a l w a y s & f o r e v e r Joined: Mar 2007 Posts: 691 Location: In his arms ♥ Karma: 1 Re: We find w.h.e.r.e we are in [t h i s] {Lakoen} « Reply #4 on Apr 21, 2007, 3:52pm » Shaking her head a little bit, she didn’t really know what to say, where to put all the blame at, even though nothing had really happened between her and Demerol yet. It was something that she knew was going to bite her in the butt in the end when she couldn’t run fast enough. There was no doubt that she was trying to figure everything out, but she knew that was no reason to lie. She wasn’t really like this at this moment was she? This didn’t seem to be her at all, a lair, and basically a cheater by sneaking around and being Demerol’s best friend. This was why she felt so cornered, like there was no where to go or to hide from the wrath that she was going to get from lying or telling the truth. They both would hurt just as much in her opinion, though this was probably not at all true, and the lying was probably the worst, she felt lost. She felt all the confidence start to drain from her body since she had really started to know Demerol her freshman year., She knew that was she was doing wasn’t right, and she knew that she wasn’t really respecting the relationship that he had with Lakoen. It was just the way he looked at her, the way he made her smile even when was being a bit of a jerk. It was those moments that stopped her from saying more, and she had to be honest when she said that she didn’t want them to end. The only problem with this was that she had to hide all this from everyone no matter who they were. It didn’t matter if they really knew the real her or not she still had to hide that away. The problem with all this was she was basically lying about very little detail, or at least bending it slightly so it would seem that it was no big deal, and there was nothing to really be worried about. She hated being like this, but at the same time she felt like it was needed and it was the only way out. If she didn’t lie, then she knew that she would be in for trouble right at that moment, and she wasn’t sure if she could handle that or not. So the alterative was what she had chosen to do. She had to say something, or this friendship between Lakoen and herself would be over and there would be nothing that would be able to reverse that. Looking at her friend in the eyes, she knew that she had to at least give enough details to satisfy the angry Lakoen. The why could be answered in her head with detail, explaining that she didn’t want anyone to know because Jacob was her best friend, and Demerol also happened to hate his half brother. Also the fact that his dating history wasn’t the best in the world and people would probably get the wrong idea about the two’s relationship with each other. Her point was to show that it was strictly tutoring and confidential unless Demerol told her that it wasn’t. That was as simple as she could put it really, but she wasn’t going to try to say that all in one bond now was she? No, of course she wouldn’t, she would give Lakoen a little bit at a time. “Its called tutor, tutoree confidentially, which means that I am only allowed to speak of it when I need to or when Demerol requests me to.” She looked at her papers for a couple more seconds before she looked up at Lakoen once again to tell her more about why she was doing what she was doing. “Plus, Jacob hates Demerol, you know that for a fact. And Jacob is my best friend, and him hearing about this would not be such a good thing.” It was true, it didn’t matter what the relationship Demerol and Guinna happened to be holding, he would try to beat the crap out of Demerol. She didn’t want that, that was for sure because she knew that not only would she get fired from her tutoring job, but she would see two people that she cared about get hurt. There was the next thing that she would have to add, and of course, that would be a little bit of a harder thing to do since she couldn’t mention the whole thing about Lakoen and Demerol’s relationship into the whole big picture. “Life has been enough of a strain on everyone, including Rid.” The truth was that she wanted to show that she was trying to do what was best for everyone, and not just for herself, though lying in the end never turned out to do any good. The reasons for it, as lame as they may have seemed, made plenty of since in the girl’s mind. She should have known that lying hadn’t been the best thing to do, and the hiding of it all didn’t really do her any good. Though, she knew that lying was bad in most cases, hiding things away from people and making half-truths seemed to be just as bad, if not worse. There was some truth in what she said, and that had been the point of it, to see that she was being honest about all the things that was going on at least somewhat. She was stressed about it of course, and she added a bit of notes onto Demerol’s file that she needed to put on that his new teachers had mentioned to her when she had visited them. She had the same hour of English as he did, which would make things interesting, but that was alright. They gave her a different test than they gave the rest of the class so she didn’t know what was on it until the day of the test. In fact, that was what happened at very class, and she was perfectly fine with that as well. It meant that they had a reason to actually study a couple of things together, and do something other than tutoring. They all would let Demerol leave if he requested for a pass to the tutoring center, and he came back with all the completed work in his hand. The whole point of him having a tutor at the school was so he could handle himself and get his work done. She knew that she had only had a year of experience with the boy, but that really didn’t change how most people saw her. She was still at the bottom, and he was still at the top. If you looked carefully though, you would be able to notice some personality changes, but other than that, really nothing. Her spot had and still was waiting for her, just like Demerol’s was waiting for his, and they both took their proper places. She was supposed to be the girl that never let a guy cause her any problems, and he was supposed to be the man whore that everyone knew him as. Which pretty much if you added two and two together would show that they wouldn’t mix logically on the surface at all. You just had to look deeper than that to know the truth though, you had to see the two when they were talking to each other about an important issue, like Demerol’s real parents being one of them. Though that hadn’t been mentioned to her much yet, she was sure that it would be pretty soon. « Last Edit: Apr 21, 2007, 4:43pm by [g.u.i.n.n.a] t y r a n t » Link to Post - Back to Top   Logged Guinna & Demerol xx always and forever Lakoen Cannon Junior/Gobel Moderator Graphics Manager Prom Queen Cheerleader member is offline Perfection is far from the truth.... Joined: Mar 2007 Gender: Female Posts: 271 Location: ♥♥♥ Karma: 0 Re: We find w.h.e.r.e we are in [t h i s] {Lakoen} « Reply #5 on Apr 22, 2007, 12:10pm » Lakoen had no clue what to say after she blew up in Guinna’s face so she just stood there in silence, waiting for a response from the girl. The girl that was supposed to be her friend and the girl that she was suppose to trust. Even if they didn’t necessarily talk that much they still cared about each other. Lakoen knew that, but she really didn’t find that she cared much for the liar that was standing right in front of her at the moment. Yelling had made her feel better for sure though. Unfortunately Guinna was the one that had to get yelled at. Lakoen was pretty sure that when she had been yelling she was letting out more than the anger she felt towards Guinna, but also the anger she had from her parent’s deaths and everything falling threw her fingertips. Who wouldn’t be angry when it seemed like their life had taken a turn for the worst and came tumbling down? People that were overly happy most likely. Lakoen didn’t want to be like that. Lying to herself is what she was doing, and that didn’t help her in any way what so ever. Not only that, but if Lakoen thought of it she was being a hypocrite to Guinna. She was lying to herself about being fine, and she was lying about it to everyone that was around her. It was a cruel game, but it was true. For some reason Lakoen felt like crying. Crying her heart out and disappearing. A lump seemed to form in her throat as she stood there drown in her thought. Guinna shaking her head figuring out a new lie to craft up to cover up the old one. That is what Lakoen thought she was doing anyway. Once you lied you always seemed to do it again without batting an eyelash. Lakoen had known her fair share of liars and new their way. It was always the same, and the fact that some many people had lied to her was the reason that she didn’t trust a living so until they proved their worth of the trust. Losing that trust meant you would probably never receive it back. On a special occasion though it could be possible, but very hard. Guinna lying to her about so many things diminished the trust that was held for her by Lakoen in an instant. At a time like this when everything in her life was going wrong, Guinna seemed to add to the mountain of burdens that had overtaken her as of recently. In Guinna’s case, that only made it worse. If the girl wanted to gain her trust back she would have to work extremely hard to accomplish it. Was their friendship over, or was it hanging on by a thread? Lakoen wondered if she had overreacted at all. A little bit maybe, but Guinna didn’t know how she felt so it didn’t matter to her. How Guinna got up the courage to lie Lakoen was still trying to imagine. She wondered how the girl felt being in her sinful skin at the moment. Even Lakoen didn’t like to lie, but Guinna doing it was amazing to her. Unpredictable, that girl was being. Maybe she had turned over a new leaf. A bad leaf… Looking at her friend with hurt eyes, Lakoen listened to what Guinna had to say-only half willing. She agreed with some of it, but thought that Guinna was making up some lame accuse. You had to give the girl her props though. She was trying and Lakoen could tell. Shaking her head she sighed and looked down at her shoes before looking back up and Miss Liar Pants and saying, ”Well, you know I wouldn’t have told anyone if this tutor confidentiality thing even exist. For one thing are you saying that if I asked someone else that they wouldn’t know who you were tutoring? I’m guessing Rid or Ny know. Do they or don’t they? Giving her friend a questioning look she looked over at the other girl who was now watching them like they were the biggest wrestling match on TV this year. Rolling her eyes she looked back at Guinna and added to what she had said before, ”I know Jacob hates Demerol, but I am pretty sure that if you told him he would know that it was just strictly tutoring. I wouldn’t have even cared if you told me it was him. I might have even laughed about it. The only reason I am so mad is that fact that you lied, and the fact that you think you had to lie.” Sighing, Lakoen ran a hand through her hair before grabbing her bag off of the chair she had placed it on when she had first come into the room. What a mistake that had been to walk in. She wished she hadn’t at all, but yet she wished she had. It was important that she knew how Guinna had been playing. At least she knew now that she had lost a friends trust. She wasn’t blind to the fact. Somewhat she wished she was blind though, it saved her from the anger and pain she was feeling at the moment. Of all people she could have lied to she lied to Lakoen the biggest, and Lakoen was the one that had trouble with trust. Great move on Guin’s part that was-not. At a loss for words Lakoen felt the awkward silence come between them. There had to be something she could say to make it all better. Guinna was one of the hardest people one could possibly be mad at, but considering the consequence she was one of the easiest. Still, Lakoen didn’t like to be mad at her friends. It was torture for her, and she had been tortured enough this year. When would all of it quit. Never, if something else horrible happened Lakoen didn’t thing that she could handle it. If something else happened she might rather be dead than alive. Even though death solved nothing. It was just how she felt. As these thoughts spun around in her head she felt her eyes fill up with tears and one started to slid down her cheeks that were red from anger. Whipping the tear away she scolded her self silently for crying in front of Guinna. Lakoen hated crying in front of people, but it was all piling up and had to come out some time. Why now though. Her tears were not only full of anger towards Guinna, but of sadness from her parent’s dying and everything else that seemed to be happening to her lately. Again, Lakoen closed her eyes and breathed in some fresh air before opening her eyes and staring straight at Guinna, ”It hurts to be mad at you.” she said, as another tear came slipping down her cheek, ”being mad at you is too much right now, but yet I can’t help but be made at you. Geez…” Lakoen trailed off and with the back of her hand whipped the tears away from her face. She felt so stupid right now. Like the most self-centered person ever to walk on earth. Everything had to come out eventually though. ”Guinna, I still don’t get it. Why would you hide it if you didn’t like him? Please, tell me now. If you like Demerol just tell me now and save the trouble of another conversation like this.” Looking back up at the girl that seemed so different now she gave her a look of seriousness. Guinna was seen in a completely different light now then Lakoen had seen her before. It was hard to comprehend that Guinna really wasn’t as pure as she appeared and it was even odder to picture her and Demerol together at all. Demerol didn’t seem like he would go for the Guinna type, but maybe something changed inside of him. That was something Lakoen couldn’t comprehend. Nobody could change that much in a matter of a little while. It didn’t seem possible, especially for Demerol. If it was true Lakoen would have to learn and live with it. « Last Edit: Apr 22, 2007, 12:13pm by Lakoen Cannon » Link to Post - Back to Top   Logged Forum Jump--------------------» Home--------------------» General--------------------- Announcements --- Sub-plots --- Prologues --- Soon to come- Character Applications --- Accepted Applications --- Pending Applications --- Adoptable Characters- Character Interaction --- Personals --- Plot Discussions --- Plot Ideas --- Claims- Dance Arrangements --- Pre-Homecoming Play --- Superlatives --- Homecoming Councal --- Couple Display --- Dance Plots- Out of Character --- General Nonsense --- Graphics Center --- Advertisements --- Games --- Polls --- Absences--------------------» Legacy High--------------------- Front Office- Cafeteria- Classes- Detention Room- Library- Staircases- Tutoring Center- Hallways and Lockers- Gym--------------------» Campus--------------------- Courtyard- Parking Lot- Track and Football Field- Soccer Field--------------------» Waylon University--------------------- Dorms- General Grounds- Fine Arts Building- Library and Study- Math and Science Building- English Building- Food Court- Main Building- Raven Memoral Garden--------------------» Waylon--------------------- Restaurants --- Leans Cafe- Residences --- 313 Willow Apartments --- Barron Manor --- Harper Manor --- Hill Residence --- La Chante Brise --- Paradise Mansion --- Reynolds Residence --- The Stone Estate --- Leans/Tyrant Residence --- Johnson Residence --- Cannon Residence - Park- Beach- Sunset Club- Gaven's Car Repairs- Waylon Centeral Mall- Movie Theatre- Waylon Centeral Hospital- Out of Town--------------------» Connections--------------------- Notes- Journals --- when life has been unkind --» i found myself. --- Just Learning to Play Grown Up --- Even Heros Have A Right To Dream. --- Behind Smoke &&& Mirrors///Siddi Gal --- paradise ain't so sweet {colby's journal --- h.e.a.r.t.ed euy //Lakoen\\ --- Find y.o.u.r way --- intime d'un romantique{désespéré} --- is but a g . a . m . e // blairesprivatewritings --- set in S T O N E {luce's journal} --- Stand Still. Look Pretty- Photo Albums- Myspace --- T.u.t.o.r --- Siddi's Fantabulous Page of Myspacetasticness- Chatrooms- E-Mail- Instant Messaging- Phone Calls- Text Messaging

	Web pridetraglies.proboards.com